Facing Reality

I'm looking at my calendar and have very mixed emotions as I look at the date August 9.  I have decorated the square like crazy and all you can read is the huge word written in marker-GRADUATION-followed by as many exclamation marks as I could possibly fit. I filled this in the moment I received the calendar...in December. So obviously my excitement was quite apparent.  

There is no doubt that I am still excited. However, I'm beginning to take some hard doses of reality that I never thought I would have to face.  I'm getting a little scared.  As much as I always say how I'm so ready to get out and ready to move on (which I am)- I promised myself that when I started this blog I was going to be completely honest.  And that means not only being honest with you but being honest with myself.  

In my description I said that you would be following me through my successes as well as my struggles- and it's time I admit some of the latter.  

As many of you know first hand, the job search is not in any way easy.  In fact it's one of the most difficult obstacles that I've ever had to take on.  You get stressed and upset and sometimes you feel as though all the pressure that is on you will crush you.  I've definitely been there.  Am I doubting myself? Heck NO! I am 120% confident that I will make an incredible addition to a PR company if I could only get the chance to prove it.  

Being in this economy makes this already tough road even more of a challenge.  However, I refuse to fall back and use the excuse "Oh this economy sucks so of course I can't get a job." No.  I see this as a road block but there are many ways to get around a road block.  I can jump over it, go around it or break through it.  

I see the end in sight but after that....well at the moment I'm not sure.  I'm a planner and right now I have no set plans.  I have nothing I can write with pen into my calendar.  

But you know what?  

I think I'm becoming okay with it.  Why? Because I am sure without a shadow of a doubt that I will succeed.  I will get a job.  I will get a job in New York.  And all my hard will pay off in the end.  Is it frustrating and stressful that I don't have answers? Absolutely.  However, I know that everything will work out in the end. 

Everything happens for a reason- this I am positive.  

So I ask that you all keep me in your thoughts and I promise to keep you updated on all my post graduation plans.  Thank you to everyone who has called/texted/facebooked me asking how things are going.  I greatly appreciate it!! And I'm sorry that I can't give you more definitive answers right now!  One day that will change! :-)